US

It's been a while,

     went to a wedding yesterday, and makes me want my own, not just the wedding but the marriage. Can't wait to set my eyes on my HIM! can't wait for him and I to be US. :)

          

a thank you to all my heartbeats!

This is to all the people who love me but hate me, who cant stand the sight of me, who walk the other way just to avoid me, who wait outside until i'm out of the bathroom, this is for all the people who roll their eyes at me, who sit around the table to talk talk talk about me, this is for all the people who forget to pray for me, who wish that something bad will happen to me, who suck their teeth when they hear my name- whose heart sinks deep when I smile- whose heart fills with joy when I cry, this is for all the people who wish my failure to be as promising as death, this is for all the people who go thru my facebook DAILY wanting sooo badly what I wear..this is for the people who go out of their way to combat my status updates.. who like all the DUMBEST BULLSHIT just to prove a point.. who feel that they are the EPITOME of wisdom.. this is to all my fans and followers who run ahead of me just to get stuck.. forever... this is for all the people who dream about me- about my wedding day hoping and praying that my a woman will stand up in the crowd and say that my husband got her pregnant.. 
       for all the WONDERFUL PEOPLE OUT THERE WHO swear you dont give a shit about me... y'all know y'all secretly root for Akunna.... and for that I say
             FUCK YOU! yup!! ALL OF YOU! keep rooting though! It's what keeps me going.. but still.. FUCK you regardless... doubled faced pieces of grimy idle shit.. keep disturbing your lives with thoughts of Akunna ya? disturb belle full! fuckn idiots! MSCHEW! 

New every morning

You know what I want to do? 

I want to go the beach... take off my shoes... and walk along the side of the water.. 

for about 2 hours.... or until the sun begins to set

after walking, I want to sit right on that soft sand... 

fold my legs in.. and watch the water rustle swiftly as the sun goes night night... 

I want to right my worries on little pieces of paper... and drop a tear as I seal each one... 

I want to put them all in a basket.. light it..then set it to the sea....

        I want it to float upon the water....go far.. leave... away from me...

 I want to turn my back and let the wind wipe my tears... 

I want to feel... this peace..this tranquility...

                  You know what I want to do?

 I want my troubles and aches to set each day like the Sun.. 

                        and my happiness rise anew... 

                           I want to live

PeterGriffin Lullaby

I am home and I am tired- it has been a LONG day! Two finals- had to pack- then a CRAZY drive. I am happy to see everybody though. It makes me feel all warm inside when I see their faces!!
I AM TIRED!!!! like DRAINED! last day of undergrad..I know I should be bouncing off the walls, but I don't have the least bit of energy for any of that. So remember when I told you guys that I was not excited about graduating? ( I still am not) but I decided ( to TRY) to put all the negative behind me and move on- move ahead.
                I wish  feel the happiness that other people are feeling. I wish I can look at that gown and say "WOW" but I cant....
        ughk- I'm tooooooo tired to type tonight... so i'll let Peter Griffin and his WONDERFUL family lull me to sleep with their sweet satire and sexual ambiguity..... till next I type
                         maintain-maintain-maintain.......

triple D

Why is it that people are so fake? Why cant people be true to who and what they really are? It irritates me, it irritates me more when outsiders don't see the pretense. It irritates me when people walk around acting like their shit don't stink... it irritates me to know that there are people out there who don't mind destroying another persons reputation. It irritates me to know that not everybody harbors positive feelings in their heart, and that some people are just naturally wicked. If I had my way- I would wipe off ALL said individuals... and not the snap of a finger wipe off- the excruciatingly painful wipe-off. the kind of wipe off that will not only eradicate their physical being but also their ghosts..... if only I had my way... but once again, we are faced with reality... the world is not at my beck and call... and even if it were, and I did have that power... who would remain??? UGHK 

              another one of random thoughts   the human race disappoints-disgusts-disturbs me- but still I shall 

    MAINTAIN-MAINTAIN-MAINTAIN

the same thing

As it all comes to an end, I am overwhelmed with a million different feelings. Well, in all honesty, they are not that different, they are actually all in the same category. I feel disappointed (in myself) I feel like a let down, even though I have this degree I have accomplished nothing. I am confused and of distraught mind. I dont know whether to cry everyday or to keep pretending that everything is and will be ok. My future is soo undetermined and that is the most painful aspect of all. Everything I have planned for myself I did not one. For some reason I lack motivation to reach my goals. I am about to graduate and I should be excited, but I am sad (for lack of a better word) I feel like drowning myself in my own tears, but what will that accomplish? NOTHING....

                                    I am trying to maintain... but times like this....it is proving to be .....

Suzie W.

It was a HELL of a night. One of mi amigas (---------) celebrated her 21st and it was really and truly something else. We went to the city, this hot spot "Suzie Wong" Its pretty inside... but MEGA loud!! Everyone got loose and did them... people were twerking and jerkin, grindin, poppin, droppin, dry fucking everything...... The drinks were free (we got a hook up) so alcohol played a MAJOR role in it for some, for others they were just having a good time. All in all- it was a pretty good night. Yours truly did not drink... but I did have my share of "innocent" fun.... 
 now we're back in school- its 6:18 in the AM and I am TIRED!!!!
      Guess I may post a pic or two later on
             till then
     MAINTAIN-MAINTAIN-MAINTAIN

Intro-du-nkowa ;)

I just deleted my FB account and I feel REALLY GOOD. I mean at first it was a bit weird, still is kinda, but i'll get used to it.  ANYWHO....... So this is blogspot huh? quite interesting. I've spent like two hours tryna customize it to fit ME. I have been partially successful. I am excited to start things on here. 
     by the way- I'm Akunna.... and I have SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH to share. I just hope I wont be a sanguine about this,'would really like to be faithful to this whole blog thing.
       sooo ummm yeaaaaa..... I hope I get some followers, if I do..GREAT! if not then HEY ba wahala... it'll be my outlet... just me myself and I
               be back soon
                 till then
        maintain-maintain-maintain