Today has been on and off, seriously on and off. I went on two walks today just to air off my head. It sucks that all my writing have to sound depressing, honestly I don't mean for them to. I do wish to have a post that will make anyone (if any one does read this) to smile... anyway...
It's been hard, cant seem to put my finger on one particular thing, the job thing isn't working much, the studying? HA! that isn't making much headway either, I'm stuck between confusion and the confused...
You know when you are not happy, no matter what you do, how much you beautify yourself, how many walks you take, no matter how much you drink or smoke, no matter your exit, it will always be closed until you find the root of your unhappiness.
I think I am slowly figuring out what is making me feel so sad, what is taking away my joy, what is depressing me... but finding it is only half the battle- this has been a war, an ongoing war that has been taking over me, like a virus...once I find out what the problem is, I need to put mind body and soul together, we need to become one and fight.. we need to join forces with He who is all powerful and cast whatever it is back where it came from....
its time I did some cleansing, its high time.....
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